Happy

10:37 AM

At first thought, this seemed like a silly and irrelevant idea of a post to have on my blog. You know, it's been done before, what does it have to do with my exchange? etc. But it really has everything do to with it, since it has to do with me. This year was filled with great opportunities that urged great efforts on my part. I'm very thankful to live where I do and be given all these opportunities that are before me. I really am. The more I think about everything the more good I find in it. This year really took a toll on my mental health and I didn't even know what was going on with my own self until it really struck me full-force. I think it's different for everyone and I definitely don't think I had it the worst but it was definitely frustrating to go from being someone who was always level-headed, emotionally strong and independent to start feeling helpless and not being able to control my feelings and begin to feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. Anxiety really drove me crazy in the last months of school but I'd like to say I have a better understanding of it now, and am slowly beginning to learn how to deal with panic attacks and all the terrible things that come with it.

I want to make this a happy post I can go to when i'm not feeling my best. A couple nights ago I was feeling really anxious and my thoughts hit a fork in the road wherein I realized how much easier it would be to just give in to everything I was feeling and allow that panic attack to occur full force and just cry it all out. But then the other part of me just wouldn't allow it, knowing how much it just simply sucks and can last for so long and is just that much harder to get out of if i'm alone. I couldn't sit still and I was sitting on the brim of it for so long, I don't even know how many breaths I took trying to calm down. Anyway, what I think will be good for me is a cheesy, happy go-to post with some of my favorite motivational and happy quotes for a pick me up. I'm going to be away from people that I care about a lot for quite a few months, but i'll also be embarking on the most anticipated journey of my life, one of my greatest and proudest accomplishments. Today I received my official acceptance from my french school. Now all I have to do is apply for my visa and book my flight!!!

I think i'm bound to feel homesick at times and all that, so I've decided that I want to document my trip as much as possible and in different ways. I will keep this blog going with maybe more personal thoughts and photos and I also want to post videos of my travels and fun adventures with my friends--something I did during my high school europe trip about 2 years ago. I think that that will not only be great for documenting memories but also a long term project I can invest my time into while abroad.

x






What are some of your favorite pick-me up motivational quotes?




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1 comments

  1. I loved this, thank you for sharing, it's funny how you can describe something that is so unique to you and happening inside your head and I'm sitting here nodding at everything and thinking of times I have felt the same inside my own.

    I really like the sayings and images you choose, and the idea of holding on the good feelings to use them when you're anxious. It's a long journey but you're well and truly moving. You have so much to look forward to and I am so excited to see how it pans out!

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